In a Moment of Sadness There Is Always some Sparkle of Hope and Happiness..

I mentioned in an earlier post that a young girl died recently, unexpectedly, bringing sadness to many of my friends and classmates at college. Today they decided to do something about this death, something that didn't involved dismay or bereavement. They decided to remember her in the best way possible.

An event was organised, so small yet with an impact that made it beautiful in so many ways. All around the college I saw purple. On people's T-shirts, whether it was in patterns or stripes or the entity, on basic things like socks and through make-up. People wore purple in memory of the young girl's vibrancy and to commemorate her happy life. The colour was everywhere, no matter how small or how much. People who barely knew her or who didn't know her at all wore the colour and that in itself was a wonderful sight. For people to care in a way that they had no idea they were doing. To comfort without saying a word or offering any contact.

But today was also about something else. It was about raising awareness for a particular charity. This charity is called CRY - Cardiac Risk in the Young. CRY is a charitable organization that helps raise awareness of cardiac risk - of Sudden Cardiac Death and Sudden Death Syndrome. It initially promotes the heart screening of young people and contributes to medical research. It holds ECG screenings, donates medical equipment to hospitals and offers support to suffering families and friends that have lost someone to these conditions. Their work is miraculous and amazing, but they, like any charity, desperately need your help. They need donations to help keep up what they are already doing.

Though I was disappointed with the few buckets and pots around college offering people the chance to donate, I have heard that we as a college raised over £200 in aid of the charity.

I can't do much and that annoys me because I feel useless. But some of you read this blog and those few of you can do something with me. This is my way of helping and doing something worthwhile toward this.

This charity has the potential to save many lives, even with just a small donation that you can offer. Please, follow the link, look around the site and research it, give what you can - no matter how little or large. http://www.c-r-y.org.uk/donate.htm

Thanks for taking the time to read this and everyone who took part today, you did a good thing. Everyone that donated, you're great in many ways and just remember your money has gone toward someone's life that may have been lost without the loose change in your pocket.

To the organisers of today, I salute you. I wish I could hug you. You are absolutely brilliant and wonderful, caring and loving people who should be proud of what they've achieved.

To those of you reading this click the link. Please.

Signing off...

The Look Of Love

I'm not really one to celebrate Valentine's Day. In all honesty I've never really had anyone to share it with. I also think that if you love someone it should be shown everyday, not on one designated day of the year where it's expected.
HOWEVER! Saying that, I do think that Valentines Day can be special. The people who take it seriously and are genuinely romantic I commend.. and want to know where I can get one of my own. Haha! It is a day where people can truly express what they feel for one another without it seeming too geeky or smooshy.
I'm a killer for romance, anyone that knows me knows that I say 'awh' to every little declaration and I have to say, I found this wonderful video that is just so sweet and so cool all at the same time -

Anyone currently celebrating Valentine's Day with the person they love or are only just falling in love with, I hope you have a wonderful day and evening and it puts a smile on your face in this dreary February month =) <3

Ramblings and Updates =)

A friend reminded me today that I hadn't blogged in a LONG time.. I don't know why really.. Just haven't really thought I had anything all that interesting today...
I'll catch you guys up, get this thing rolling again -

I finally bought the plane ticket's for me and my friends to go on holiday!! I'm so excited!! Five of us, going to Spain, in July. College will be over, exams done. It will be a well deserved break in the sun, sea and sand of Calpe. It has been a gruelling and stressful process so far, don't get me wrong. With the disorganisation of 18 year old students it was bound to be. We knew nothing of airports, plane tickets, travel insurance, travel costs. I've had people drop out, people join, people become increasingly indecisive. Along with myself only two of the original travellers are still going! Haha! However we have been joined by some very enthusiastic and excited fellow travellers who cannot wait to get going and have a great laugh!! After I received the money from the finalised bunch, pressed the 'book' button on the Easyjet website, the excitement began to build. None of us have ever been on an independent holiday where we have to act as true adults - like we're already supposed to be. I honestly cannot wait until July now. It couldn't come fast enough =D


I have been working on a novel for the past few months now, and though it's gone through it's near-impossible stages, I'm finally on a role with it. It's currently over 63,500 words long, on 114 pages and barely into the thick of the plot. It's a exciting process and I'm loving every second of being immersed in the world created by my characters and their troubles. I almost scrapped the idea a fair few times over, doubting the plot and myself, finding it impossible to work with, but I am increasingly glad that I didn't. It is a piece I am loving and for once truly confident in. Which is rare for me! Haha! There are so many possibilities that I am thrilled to be able to delve into and explore over the next few months of writing... And I have also gained some anxious readers which is a fantastic prospect and lovely to have. Support is always needed, wanted and adored.

I also happened to have the opportunity to see a certain Mr Murs in concert too.. And he was bloody brilliant!! I was excited when going along to the Brighton Centre, listening to his music and remembering how much I loved his voice but it wasn't until I heard him sing live once again and enjoy his banter with the audience did I remember how much I truly adored the man! He isn't my usual choice in music, his style out of my comfort range of pop-punkish, but I find it difficult not to smile at his upbeat, catchy tunes and charming personality! I've seen him before in concert, at London Hammersmith Apollo last year, and knew that he was utterly amazing already. Accompanied with a vast selection of his new music last night, he somehow managed to outdo himself entirely! I love falling in love with an artist all over again, it is one of the most wonderful feelings ever =)
His support act, Lilygreen and Maguire, are also a band I would like to recommend everyone go listen to! They are such charming boys who have absolutely gorgeous voices. I fell in love with them and their music last night and I truly hope they get far. But they need everyone's support! Look them up on twitter under the name of 'lilygandmaguire' and find them on Facebook, give them a listen! =)





OK, I'll stop this rambling now and let you all get on with your daily doings...

Signing off..

When the mind fails, speak from the heart...

It's been a long time since I posted. In all honesty I haven't really known what to post about. I've been wanting to write a post about something for a while now and have been struggling with deciding whether it was right to do or not. But I feel that it is something I want to say, no matter how late I am. So here goes...

My best friend suffered a great loss a few weeks ago. One of his friends, a girl in his class, tragically died, suddenly and shockingly. She was young, the same age as myself. She was good friends with a various amount of my close friends and her death rippled through the college and the live's of the people that attend.
It's truly hard to know what to say in those sorts of situations. You read books and watch films were the protagonists are surrounded by heartbreaking situations like that and you convince yourself you'd be perfectly fine and strong if you were put into that position. But the truth is the moment you are hit with it every word of encouragement and sentence of comfort you have planned disappears and your mouth goes dry, your mind goes into shock and you can do nothing but cry, for even though they aren't your friend really, you know how much the people you love will be suffering and how you can do nothing to change it.
It made me think of the fragility of life, how nothing is certain. We cannot predict tomorrow. We cannot judge the lateness of the bus or even the end of the world. Life can be taken in the blink of an eye, the beat of a heart, without warning or time to understand. It's a cruel reality, a heart-wrenching truth, and one everyone wishes they could change. Not only for themselves, but for the people they love, even for the people they don't know. Because nobody should have to deal with something so heart-breaking.
But though life can be taken in such an instance, during the time that this happened I realised how much one person can affect the live's around them. As the messages poured into the girl's Facebook, they weren't messages of hate and guilt, they were words of love and sorrow. Of how much she would be missed. But there was no blame shouldered onto anyone, because there was no one to blame. In desperate times we all want to force the blame onto someone, just to put reason to a horrible thing. But there was only talk of being in a 'better place' and of the memories each and every person shared with her. Her family's posts, her best friend's words and even jokes, moved me to tears. Because they weren't regretful, only happy that they got the time they did. That they would savour every moment forever. It was beautiful in every single way.
In the hundreds of messages posted in memory of her I saw that she was a part of so many things, involved - even if unintentionally - in so many moments. Everyone is in a photo, a conversation, that they will never know about. If you ever feel lonely in this world, just remember that someone, somehow, will always know you.
During this time all I wanted to do was comfort. And cry. The crying was probably due to the fact that I'm overly emotional, but the moment I saw my best friend I wanted to hug him, hard and for a long time. Because even if it doesn't feel like the right time or place, everyone needs comfort. To be reminded that they are surrounded by love. Because no one can live without love. And I think that the expression of that love on the girl's Facebook page and the love she clearly shared with so many is a wonderful example of that.

This post was something I was never sure I was going to write, or ever going to even say, but I wanted to share this. In memory of her, in assurance of all my friends that I am here for them, whenever they need me to be. I didn't know the girl too well, perhaps a passing smile, a few sentences exchanged, but she was a major part of the live's of the people around me. It feels right in a way to write this, but terrifying at the same time.

I have purposely left out the names in this piece, for confidentiality and respect. I apologise if this offends or upsets any readers, especially people who know me, but forgive me, I love you all and wanted you to know.

I have so much more to say, but for now, this is enough. This is what I want people to know.

Signing off...